Give it UP for my FAVORITE time of the year!! The colors, the smell of nutmeg, cinnamon and cumin in the air, (You dont believe me? Take a whiff!)

First off, I'm not really sure if anyone really is following my blog much anymore, so at this point it may just be the narcissism in me, that feels the need to continue posting. But if you are reading this, let me just say thank you for caring enough to see what crazy, zany things I have to say once again.

Where to start? First off, I had to postpone going back to school due to financial reasons, the BIG one being I am still unemployed...funny how I seemed to last this long without ending up in a psych ward. I dunno how I do it, I guess I just continue to dream of bigger things ahead, and pull myself out of the day-to-day slump, from being at home most of the time. I am looking forward to enrolling in spring semester and hopefully graduate a year later (keeping my fingers crossed.)

In the meantime, I'm continuing to pursue inspiration wherever I go. Mostly its sitting in front of the tv, watching Food Network lol, it could be worse right? I also look forward to the time I get to spend babysitting Kadence, and playing with her, and seeing her facial expressions throughout the day, brings determination and hope to my heart! I cannot imagine not loving her as much as I do! Lily too! I just dont see her that often. But when I do, I soak it in as much as I can!! They're both beautiful gifts from god, and I thank him each and everyday for the both of them! So much so, that the slightest thought of them brings a smile to my face, and warms my heart! I cant express my love for them enough! I only hope that perhaps one day, I will be blessed to be a father and a role model for a little 'shay' of my own. That would BE AWESOME! lol

Who knows, maybe this is suppose to be my training for that blessed day?

Theres hope..


kim and ned said...

Still reading. ha.
Sorry about the school thing. I support your Food Network watching. I wish I could more (Ned usually doesn't let me).

$Ice$Man said...

I knew I liked you for a reason Kim lol Glad you are still a fan of my insanity lol